Tuesday, December 23, 2008

That Which I Don't Understand (by James)

I am sitting in dark, cold hotel room in Grand Rapids. Michigan, trying to make sense of the recent developments of the pregnancy. I'm confused. I'm not sure what to pray for or even how to pray. It all seems surreal. The odds of a heterotopic pregnancy with one of the twins in the ovary is so rare. Yet, this is where we find ourselves.

I'm ready to get back home and be with Amanda and just hold her and love her and tell her how proud I am of her for being strong and fully relying on God. The same God who has brought us out of tough situations before will do the same again. No matter what the situation or outcome, I cannot deny he is working in our lives.

7 weeks today. For that, I am grateful. A strong heartbeat. A good position in the uterus. I pray for your continued growth Baby A.

For you Baby B, I'm overwhelmed by your presence. I can't understand many things. What I do know is that even if you have passed on, you are still a creation of God that has been given to us.

Tomorrow is a big day and will be more telling of things to come. Please pray for wisdom from the MFM and clarity for us.

God is good all the time and all the time God is good.

3 comments:

Randi said...

Praying for you both. James, I love how supportive you are of Amanda and how invested you are in this pregnancy and in your family.

Jenny said...

James, I'm praying you make it home quickly and safely. I know how difficult it is to be away from your spouse during challenging times. You both have been on my mind all day... praying praying praying! Anxious to hear about your appt tomorrow!

Amy said...

What a blessing you are to Amanda. Many men would not be as proactive as you have been or be able to show their emotional support as well as you have! I know that this situation - on top of all of the others - is beyond difficult. As always, your faith in God and love for each other is a witness to all that know you. My prayers are with your family.